J'Lostein

I'm a Glass Child


Fragile, crystal, and translucent.

I'm Jamie. I adore dolls, collecting gemstones and minerals, reading the odd book or two, documentaries, astronomy, paleontology, the supernatural and paranormal, and music. I write it, sing it, play it, record it, and emote through it. It speaks for me when I stumble yet again with my speech.

Sometimes, I'm comfortably, unmistakably, strongly sure of who I am and what I live for, of who I am to be and the goals I set for myself. Other times, it all gets shaken up and shattered into a million little pieces and I find myself floating and struggling to find it again.

And I love the madness so much.

I just have to wake up and escape out of my stasis and cease to merely 'exist'.

What about you?

gourmandghast:

unexplained-events:

Begotten (1990)
If you are looking for an experimental horror film to watch, go for this one if you can stomach it. It re-imagines the story of Genesis. The story opens with a robed, profusely bleeding “God” disemboweling himself, with the act ultimately ending in his death. It’s in black and white and has absolutely no dialogue. The words “experimental horror” are the best way to describe this film.
[LINK]


Gonna watch this later!

gourmandghast:

unexplained-events:

Begotten (1990)

If you are looking for an experimental horror film to watch, go for this one if you can stomach it. It re-imagines the story of Genesis. The story opens with a robed, profusely bleeding “God” disemboweling himself, with the act ultimately ending in his death. It’s in black and white and has absolutely no dialogue. The words “experimental horror” are the best way to describe this film.

[LINK]

Gonna watch this later!

I adore reading and deconstructing people like open books. More than I adore reading actual books. The lines are just so much more frighteningly beautiful.

"Sometimes the longer it takes, and the harder it is, is what makes it the best in the end. And you are the best thing that ever happened to me. That is why I am still here, even if it is hard, or if it is going to take a long time. You’re just worth it."

My heart cried today.

inritum:

reblog and make a wish!this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

inritum:

reblog and make a wish!


this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

(via chisanakuroihana)

"Enlightenment is a destructive process. It
has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier. Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It’s seeing
through the facade of pretence. It’s the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true.”

“For a star to be born, there is one thing that must happen: a gaseous nebula must collapse.

So collapse.
Crumble.
This is not your destruction.

This is your birth.”


~ (via timedoesnotexisthere)

(Source: astrasperas, via nekomcevil)

“I like beautiful melodies telling me terrible things.”


~ Tom Waits. (via candystripe)

(Source: , via sadsofia)

100 Happy Days - Day 24

My baby nephew Mikael turned 1 year old today! The precious little man is growing up so fast :)

Sometimes the smallest things make the biggest difference :)